Jasper's Journal

[Jasper Hale]

I'm not normal. Not even close. I'm not even normal in my own coven. I only feel normal when I'm with Alice, which is quite often actually. But when I'm with Alice only, which isn't as much. Well if you want me to answer some of your unasked questions, my name is Jasper Hale. I'm 165. Well, technically I'm eternally 20. I'm a vampire. And I live in Forks, Washington. I'm in love with the reason of my existince, Alice Cullen my wife.

I have two brothers, and a sister. My oldest brother is Emmett and he's married to my sister Rosalie Hale. Yes, we share the same last name. That's because, to humans we are twins. So yea, we kinda have to share the last name. My youngest brother is Edward. And he's kind of in a pickle. Wow. Did I really just say that? Whatever. He's in love with a human.
More about that later.

My adoptive mother and father, not that I really need one, I'm old enough to pass as on my own. But it's nice living with them. They're Carlisle and Esme Cullen, and we all share a house. Alice and I are pretty much the rejects of the family, because we have our own past. Carlisle was turned, and from there he created Edward, Esme, Rosalie, and Esme. Alice and I were created by various vampires, and stumbled across the Cullens on our own.

I have the most trouble of all of us with the whole "vegetarian" thing. Which I find has very little help on my self esteem. But I also have one of the worst pasts. I was created to serve in an army of newborns in the newborn wars in the South. I was created by a vampire named Maria. I, unlike most, wasn't destroyed after a year.

I did, however, have the job of destroying the newborns once their raw strenth ran out. Only a few survived like me. Peter is one of them, he ran away with Charolette his mate, and later got me to run away, not that I had never thought about it before. But pretty soon I seperated from them even, and went away on my own. Oh, by the way, I can understand and manipulate people's feelings, which sucks when you're trying to kill and drink the blood of someone who's fears you're feeling right along with them.

I stumbled into a diner one day, somewhere in... somewhere. I was depressed, which was usual around that time, and I hadn't eaten in about two weeks, meaning I was almost crazy. And then she was there, and she took me to the Cullens. And I started out on the vegetarian diet, and I swear I tried. But I strayed sometimes, and I still do sometimes.

I think that's enough for now. I'm going to go get on the computer.

Love and Kisses... haha.
Jasper Hale.

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